quite vague

I rose at 6:30, showered, sat and breakfasted as usual, but at 8:30 I fell asleep again and was woken up at 11:00 by a call from Walker. I do some corrections and send the pages off. I find an explanation on the internet of the ninja shirt-folding technique (which impresses me so much I refold all my shirts) and David Foster Wallace’s recent speech (which is also quite inspiring, though on a higher plane. Not that shirts aren’t on quite an exalted plane, themselves). My timetable is completely off – I call Haru at 13:30 and the afternoon is quite vague. I spend a lot of time waiting to see if are were final corrections from Walker, and then, when I’ve decided that there wouldn’t be and I can go to the shops, the telephone rings.

In the evening I watch the television for a while and look at more web sites.

an exercise in atmosphere-sharing

6:25 – Rise. I’ve been intermittently awake since 6:00. Actually I think I woke up at 4:30, and was able to go back to sleep with a sigh of relief.

7:00 – Sitting.

7:35 – Breakfast.

8:30 – Completing work that needs to be uploaded to the Walker server soon.

9:30 – Uploading.

The rest of the morning is spent on small chores.

12:45 – Set off for Walker. Have lunch and chat with my various contacts – it’s not so much a briefing session as an exercise in atmosphere-sharing.

17:00 – Return home.

18:45 – Leave the flat to go to a local Buddhist centre for sitting. I keep falling asleep. Afterwards, though, I do feel the benefit.

20:20 – Return to the flat. Chips and a couple more episodes of The Prisoner.

23:11 – Begin writing this.

23:20 – Complete and post.

between bursts of heavy rain

6:35 – Rise.

7:00 – Sitting.

7:35 – Breakfast.

8:30 – DoA, Guitar Work. Low energy, and finding it difficult to concentrate.

10:00 – To work.

13:00 – Lunch.

13:30 – Speak to Haru.

14:20 – Back to work. One nice thing about this work is that I get to see the illustrations – in this case by Anita Jeram – in extreme detail.

19:30 – TV – A documentary on capitalism, on Columbis and a couple of episodes of CSI on Channel Five. At the same time I make and eat dinner and during the Columbus doc take some cans to the recycling bins in between bursts of heavy rain.

22:47 – Begin writing this.

between bursts of heavy rain

6:35 – Rise.

7:00 – Sitting.

7:35 – Breakfast.

8:30 – DoA, Guitar Work. Low energy, and finding it difficult to concentrate.

10:00 – To work.

13:00 – Lunch.

13:30 – Speak to Haru.

14:20 – Back to work. One nice thing about this work is that I get to see the illustrations – in this case by Anita Jeram – in extreme detail.

19:30 – TV – A documentary on capitalism, on Columbis and a couple of episodes of CSI on Channel Five. At the same time I make and eat dinner and during the Columbus doc take some cans to the recycling bins in between bursts of heavy rain.

22:47 – Begin writing this.

a piece of work and no mistake

6:35 – Rise.

7:00 – Sitting. At one point my mind strays to a situation that’s very unclear and immediately I crave chocolate.

7:40 – Breakfast.

8:00 – DoA (five against seven, which is a piece of work and no mistake) and Guitar Work.

9:20 – Leave the flat and walk over Waterloo Bridge to a notary’s office in Aldwych. The weather is lovely, not too hot or stuffy.

10:00 – Get a notarised copy of my passport made, then walk back to the flat, through Somerset House, where I’ve never been before.

11:00 – Return to the flat.

12:10 – Speak to Haru, a bit earlier than usual.

13:00 – Lunch.

14:00 – To work.

17:00 – Speak to Mariana. Very good to hear her voice again.

20:30 – Dinner.

21:00 – Watch some episodes of The Prisoner, including Fall Out. Fascinating to watch it after all the things I’ve encountered over the last few years.

22:56 – Begin writing this.

23:14 – Complete and post.

Metaphorically speaking.

6:35 – Rise. Reluctantly. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is obstreperous. Before getting out of bed, I remind myself to be conscious of my feet hitting the floor. As I’m getting into the shower, I realise that I missed the moment.

7:00 – Sitting.

7:40 – Breakfast. Again – I was aware before and after the first mouthfull that I was endeavouring to taste it. During, however, I missed it completely.

9:00 – DoA, guitar work, then another cup of coffee and I make a list of housework I need to do. The housework doesn’t get done today, but I still have the list.

13:30 – Speak to Haru.

14:00 – Lunch.

I spend the afternoon going through various hard disks archiving stuff onto DVD.

19:30 – Technically an evening off, even if I haven’t been terribly on today. I have chips and watch Grosse Pointe Blank and the documentary about the making of the Company original cast recording. The first song contains the line “You impersonate a person better than a zombie should”. There seem to be zombies everywhere at the moment. Metaphorically speaking.

23:43 – Begin writing this.

Perhaps my tongue is asleep or slow.

6:35 – Rise. I don’t really notice getting up.

7:00 – Sitting.

7:40 – Breakfast. Having missed the feet-on-the-floor moment, I endeavour to pay attention to the first mouthful of food. It takes a couple of seconds before I notice the taste (muesli, yoghurt and strawberries, FYI) – I get the coolness and texture on my tongue, but the taste itself is delayed. This is also true of the first mouthful of coffee. I’ve never noticed that before. Perhaps my tongue is asleep or slow.

Reading a small flame war on an internet forum. It’s very instructive. I have to remind myself that the fact that I’m finding other people’s idiosyncrasies fascinating is a sure sign that I possess those failings as strongly as they do, if not more so, and that it’s probably best not to demonstrate that to the world by joining in enthusiastically. This is a lot easier said than done.

8:30 – DoA, Guitar work.

10:00 – Begin work.

13:30 – Speak to Haru.

14:00 – Lunch, then phone up to organise someone to sign a photocopy of passport, as one does, then back to work, swapping Maisy corrections and GHMILY retouching.

A storm is building outside – it’s very close and humid, and the light is turning that yellow colour it does before a really enthusiastic summer storm.

18:00 – Complete work for the day. The storm breaks and the rain starts. It’s taken all day to get here from Glastonbury.

18:40 – Shower and then decide not to go out in the storm, which, now I come to write it down, is a bit weak of me, frankly. Considering I was only intending to sit on the floor for an hour.

20:00 – Eat dinner.

21:00 – Seinfeld DVD, popcorn, internet, etc.

23:03 – Begin writing this.

23:36 – Complete and post.

As per usual.

6:35 – Rise, shower

7:05 – Sitting.

7:45 – Breakfast.

8:45 – DoA, calisthenics, Askesis bass.

10:00 – to work. A process that I thought wouldn’t take very long at all, takes quite a long time. As per usual.

13:40 – Speak to Haru.

14:00 – Ag?d P gives me a lift to the supermarket and then to Robert Dyas to buy a desktop fan.

15:00 – Return to the flat (and work) with my new desktop fan. More Maisying.

18:30 – Quick shower.

18:45 – Ben arrives. Long conversation about consciousness and time. It’s remarkable the things that I only realise I know when I try to explain them to other people.

20:30 – Go out to the noodle place down on Newington Causeway. Ho fun. More conversation about the universe, the nature of consciousness and registry offices. The place is almost empty, so service is incredibly slow. When it’s very busy, it’s very quick. I am gratified to discover that no one actually knows how gravity works.

22:00 – Return home, further chat, then Ben leaves to get a bus.

23:15 – Begin writing this.

23:47 – Complete and post.

Switch to Plan B.

5:00 – Wake up. Am relieved to discover I don’t have to get out of bed yet.

6:35 – Rise, shower.

7:05 – Sitting.

7:50 – Breakfast.

9:30 – General Walkerising. Mainly Maisy.

13:15 – Speak to Haru, then collect stuff together and shower and leave the flat.

14:15 – Arrive at Walker for general check-up with Sue and Isabel. My energies change completely – feel a lot more present, somehow.

16:15 – Leave Walker.

16:35 – Return home.

18:45 – Shower. Had originally thought to go to Shinay meditation, but… didn’t seem right. Switch to Plan B.

19:10 – Leave the flat and go to the Underground station. It’s very hot down there.

19:45-ish arrive at the Virtually Acoustic Club, an open-mike club in North London. I didn’t take my guitar – I just hang out for a bit and watching the acts. Very instructive, and very clear to see people in their stance and their material and their technique. And fascinating to observe people’s relationships with their bodies. And of course when I do it I’m just as bad.

21:30-ish – Leave the VAC and catch a bus home. Get off at St Paul’s Cathedral so that I can walk home over the Millenium Bridge. As always, the cityscape at sunset is wonderful. One of my favourite things. I should get out more.

22:20 – Return home. Popcorn and Seinfeld.

23:27 – Begin writing this.

before it becomes too mythical

6:55 – I meant to go straight to sitting, but found myself doing tai chi. I didn’t do it very well, but was quite pleased to find myself doing it at all.

7:15 – Sitting.

7:50 – Breakfast, then the internet drags me in.

10:00 – Call from Watts about a font; then GHMILY and Maisy work, until I realise that I need some files that must be here… somewhere. I realise that “somewhere” lies at the bottom of the stuff under the bed.

When it gets cooler I’ll have to tackle the Stuff Under the Bed, before it becomes too mythical.

13:00 – Speak to Haru, a bit early, so as to make my dash to Walker. I keep yawning, despite the fact that now I don’t really feel tired. Another me-watching-my-body-with-vague-curiosity moment.

13:20 – Set off to pick up some files from Walker that I need.

14:20 – Return to the flat. Sandwich, then I fall asleep sitting on the sofa, then GHMILY and a spot of Maisy. Oh and some font work.

21:00 – C.S.I, Seinfeld season two.

23:34 – Begin writing this.